This is Chelsea and her four beautiful children. I met her at a rather unpleasant photo session this last fall. We planned a fun Christmas session in November and it was the coldest and windiest session I have ever photographed. She was so sweet the whole time even while it was miserable. I loved watching her with her kids and her kids with each other. It was evident that she had some motherhood lessons I could learn from. I asked her to be a part of this project to help me to grow. I have already learned so much from her. She is a woman of faith, perspective, and understanding. Here is what she had to say about motherhood.
From the moment I was a little girl I wanted to be a Mommy. I felt
like that was my purpose in life. Then when I actually became one it
far exceeded my expectations BUT also knocked me to the ground. How
can I possibly do these four little human beings justice? How can I
keep them from harm and protect them from all that is “ugly” in the
world? How can I help them be happy and responsible little people who
make the world a better place? There are so many questions that we as
mothers ask ourselves and so much pressure we put on ourselves. I
struggle everyday if I’m saying the right thing or making the right
choice for my children. As a mother I have learned that all children
are NOT created equal!! They each have their own individuality. One of
my daughters has struggled with Anxiety over the years. It’s been so
hard watching the pain and turmoil she has gone through. Sitting up
late at night holding her while she cries crushes your heart
especially when you don’t have the answers. Or everything you do to
help doesn’t seem to work or take the pain away. I had another child
struggle with night terrors every single night several times a night
for a few years. This really took a toll on my confidence as a mother.
I wanted to give up. I was so sleep deprived that I was turning into
the “ugly” that I wanted to protect my children from. I ended up
getting shingles that entered one of my eyes and now my vision is
forever affected by it. That was a very difficult time for me.
I’ve had a couple children bullied for different reasons. If somebody
were to tell you that your child’s pain is not your own. I would laugh
in their face and know they have never had children. Because you feel
every heartbreak and sorrow in your heart along with them. Being a
mother has given me an understanding of how my father in heaven feels
my pain and sorrow and only wants to take it away. All I need to do is
reach out and have faith that tomorrow is a new day. My faith is what
has truly molded me as a mother and reminds me that it is my
responsibility to teach my children what is right and what is wrong.
To live each day looking at the positive and be grateful for what is
in front of you.
There are days and probably will continue to have days when I feel
like I haven’t done them justice as a good mother. But then I’m
reminded by their sweet giggles and smiles and tender hugs and kisses
when told, “Mom you are the Best” that maybe I’m doing alright. Those
are the moments when all the doubting that tries to creep in are
washed away in an instant. All I can do is my best to be an example to
my children and show them love by listening and taking interest in
them personally. Hopefully one day my children will look back and
think they were lucky to have me as their mother. I know how truly
blessed I am to have the most amazing, wonderful kids I could have
ever dreamed or hoped for. Until then I will continue to strive to do
my very best as their mother and find joy in the little moments of
everyday life of being their Mommy.